I've been mulling over whether I should send the manipulating ***** a letter telling her exactly how I feel. I drafted something a couple of days ago and spent last night in bed whilst crying my heart out for anther hour deciding what to do with it. I decided in the end to message it to her on facebook seeing as that is the place she came onto my husband initially. I was not rude in my letter but noted fact and how I was feeling. I await her response - and am listening out for a phone call to my husband. I have told him and showed him what I have written - he wasn't happy.....
The boxes in the hallway have all gone to her house now. And then I discover that whilst I am in church he is out with her at Argos buying new units for his DVDs! They were spotted by someone we know who I don't think is aware of the situation. It will be interesting to see what happens ....
After church I took the Christmas decorations down and now with a barer room and with areas of our study and dining room emptying out things are starting to look very different. In all the lonely time I will have soon I will probably have a big purge of things.
Everyone at church was great and those who didn't know were guess what - yes shocked ! They said that this behaviour was uncharacteristic of him and that 'the other woman' must have some sort of evil hold over him.
Tonight we are going to a friends party. I will be staying serving behind the bar as I don't think I should drink and certainly don't feel like partying. I'm doing the same next weekend but without him being there.
Its sad because I can feel the bitterness in me (for her not him) and can't give myself permission to be happy. I do hope time will heal me and help me move on - at the moment I can't contemplate that.
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