Tomorrow is the day. I'll return from work in the evening and he will be gone. And then I'll see him later down at our theatre group. That will be so weird and painful.
I worked from home today, so saw more packing. To be fair he has also been sorting out some other things and parts of the house are looking tidier as there is less in it.....
Our kindly vicar came around to speak to us both individually. He said I was suffering the same as someone grieving a death - I said its worse because not only do I have the loss, I have to then see him with another woman.
I'll be going to work tomorrow to try not to think about it too much but am not sure how I'm going to cope.
We've both had tears again today. I told him I was scared about what she might get him to do with regards to the house and other things. He again assured me that he was not going to take anything away from me. So many people keep telling me to protect myself - but I do trust him and don't want to make too many changes or rock the boat in case he does want to come back. The question will be how long should I wait ?
I need to find some things to do at the weekend once my daughter goes back to uni, so I'm busy and not having time to think too much about him and her. My other daughter will be away too because her boyfriend has arranged for them to go away (it's her Christmas present).
A lovely friend has invited me over to eat on Friday night and Saturday evening I will do the bar again for another friends party - this time without my husband.
I've been feeling sick and had a stomach ache all day - so couldn't eat till this evening. Doing wonders for the diet :-/
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