In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Monday, 10 January 2011

Day 5

I've had a really bad day today. I feel totally exhausted. Probably because I am not sleeping or eating properly :-(

Today started with me finding it hard to get out of bed, then my daughter had a flat tyre so I had to drive her to work. I was late to work and then had problems parking. Then I left my glasses in the car so had to go back out and in again. Then I had problems connecting my laptop to the network. It took till midday before I got it up and running. And I had a day of back to back meetings that I had to really work hard in. I didn't leave till nearly 6pm, so didn't really have time to cook a meal before going down to the theatre. Driving home I felt physically and emotionally exhausted and was shaking. I had to push myself hard to grab a quick snack and then drive to the theatre.

I had no idea how I was going to get the tyre sorted so suggested my daughter ring my husband and ask if he could pop around the house and call the AA in to sort it. He did agree to do that - I really didn't want to ask.... My daughter has a temporary tyre fitted now so we have to get to a tyre place as a matter of urgency. Will try and sort something Wednesday lunchtime - yet something I could do without.

I'm really missing my husband - hearing his voice on the phone today for the first time since last Wednesday was heart wrenching.

I really feel like I am on a roller coaster. I started to feel OKish on Sat and Sun - feeling very down tonight :-(
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