In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Sunday, 30 January 2011

The wedding ring is off :-(

Sorry folks that are reading this - another up and down day.

Started off by crying through most of the service at Church. Everything seemed to set me off and I spent most of the time hunched forwards looking down - what is wrong with me ???

Then at a meeting at my theatre group which my husband attended I noticed that he has taken his wedding ring off. I know that she asked him to do that (he told me previously). Bit by bit she is taking away anything that links us together. I'm just waiting for him to change his facebook profile to say he is not married to me and in a relationship with her. My confidence has plummeted and I am so scared again. I HATE BEING LIKE THIS - ITS NOT ME - LOOK WHAT SHE HAS DONE TO ME <SOB>.

I know I need to pull myself out of this and try and move on but I can't ...........

This evening was nicer. I went with three girlfriends to see the show 'Showstoppers' being recorded for Radio 4. It was nice to get out and talk and do something else. But everything seems to be laced with sadness because it is not with him.

I am so not looking forward to next week - in fact I've even considered leaving the theatre group and dropping doing murder mysteries and the governors. My heart isn't in anything anymore, its all such an effort and I don't know if I can be bothered. What is happening to me ???????????
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