In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Thursday, 30 December 2010

Only a week to go

This time next week he will be leaving the house and moving in with her. I think I must still be in denial as there have been times today again when things felt 'normal' again.

We had a cry together at around lunchtime - why does he cry if he is happy with what he is doing ? It doesn't make sense to me at all - I still think she has poisoned his mind and he thinks he is doing the right thing - he feels sorry for her and wants her to feel better and then realises how much it is hurting me. Or maybe I'm just thinking that because I want to believe it :-(

One hopefully good thing today - we had the plumber in and all being well he has fixed the leak.

I had to renew my car insurance and would you believe it taking my husband off the insurance raised the cost by £100. Why ? Because I do not have a partner living with me!!!!! It so sucks .....

My husband wanted to take me out next Tuesday which is now the night before he leaves. He told me today where he wanted to take me. Its a place called the Czech club where I used to go to as a kid with my parents, I would have loved to go in 'normal' circumstances but not as things stand - I couldn't cope with going somewhere that will bring back loads of memories knowing that another chapter of my life is about to change. Just talking about it caused tears again as I am now doing.....

Little things are setting me off - like my daughter coming back with a dress for New Years Eve only to find it still had the security tag on. I'm dreading all those times when silly things like that happen and I will just start crying and not have anyone around to talk to and share with.

I am so sad..........
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  1. Me Discovering Me7 May 2011 at 13:28

    I am in tears reading your blog - so many things the same. And doesn't just add insult to injury when the insurance companies charge you to have your husband taken off the insurance!!!!!

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