I had another bad episode last night. I've never felt grief like it. I cried and cried till the early hours if the morning. Unusually for me I didn't get out of bed till nearly mid day. My husband put some breakfast and a cup of tea by my side if the bed. I heard him go out about 9 50 and he didn't return till around 12 30. Guess where he had been! He took the dog around there with his DVDs. I had another weep this afternoon. I felt so low I couldn't get my head around anything. To make things worse we have a leak from the bath through the ceiling in the hall. Hopefully we'll get the plumber to look at it tomorrow.
I looked back over old texts from my husband and have some just before he told me he was leaving saying he loved me so much. So what changed ? He bumped into the manipulating ***** in the park one day and that combined with some counselling he decided to have seemed to have poisoned his mind. I used to believe in counselling - not anymore. And what did she say to him that made him about turn overnight ? Should I ask ?
We went to music hall rehearsal in separate cars. There were still folk down there who didn't know. Once again shock and comments about him being an idiot.
I'm really struggling at the moment and all I keep thinking about is them together and me a bitter lonely person :-( will I ever feel better ?
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