I've had a bad morning with tears. It felt so normal when I woke up and then I remembered that we only have a couple more weeks together and then he will be going.
He tells me that she needs him to take care of her as she less capable than me. So that seems to be one of the reasons he is leaving me for her - I am a strong and capable person....... I don't feel strong at the moment, it's only my daughters and my friends who are helping me through this.
Apparently one of 'the other woman's' friends who had previously blanked him is now talking to him and said she blanked him beacuse she had to be with the manipulating ***** when she was crying each day bacause my husband said he was going to stay with me. She was probably also crying about the fact she had screwed her life up by leaving her husband and ending up with no one. So she continued to manipulate the situation for her own gratification - she didn't care that she was ruining her husbands, my husband, my daughters, her children and my life. How selfish, eight people's lives for her pleasure. I hope she can live with herself.
I went to church for the first time since my husband told me he was leaving. I went to the carol concert. I was so nervous so I walked down in the snow to give me time to think. Again word hadn't got around so only a few people knew. I told folk in the singing group and again everyone was so supportive I got hugs and had tears :-( As has been the pattern everyone was shocked and couldn't understand. Everyone has promised to pray for us.
We sat around the table tonight for a roast meal. It didn't go too well. The girls told him that they want him to leave first thing in the new year. He looked sad and I think finally realises the impact the news has on the girls. They all want me to decide and I am so torn - what do I do? I love them all.
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