In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Friday, 24 December 2010

Christmas Eve

Started with my husband saying he is going to be as cheerful as possible today to try and make it a happy day ! I'm finding it hard to be happy at all :-( He was out and and out in the morning as I prepared for the evening and sorting out some bits and bobs.Keeping busy certainly keeps my mind of the forthcoming changes. However sometimes I don't feel like doing anything and just want to curl up and cry. It is my decision what I do and how things go in the future - but sometimes I don't feel like being strong and positive.

In the afternoon my daughter and her boyfriend came over and we watched Boston Kickout and did spot the location as most of it is filmed in Stevenage. And then my brother in law visited from Peterborough. He tried to be cheerful but it was hard finding things to discuss and it felt a bit awkward.

Keeping busy I cooked out traditional Christams Eve meal of roast pork, bread dunplings and sauerkraut. We then opened some presents. My beautiful daughters had clubbed together and bought me a pandora bracelet with two charms, an angel they said looked like me (lol) and a bead with hearts all over it. That brought tears to my eyes - it was such a meaningful present for me and I love it. I'm so lucky to have them. I had some nice gifts from my husband too and once again the evening felt 'normal'. For the first time ever the girls had plans to go out for the evening, so here we are sitting together pretty much in silence doing our own thing. I've decided to go to the midnight communion and hope I can hold it together. I think that is the better option rather than getting drunk and sayiing things I'll regret later on........

I hope that anyone reading this has a merry Christmas.

  

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