In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Thursday, 31 March 2011

I didn't go

I didn't go to the 50th drink and I feel so left out. I'm so scared that mutual friends who do go will meet the manipulating ***** and like her......... justifying him leaving me. I've been thinking about it all night. I feel like everyone is doing things behind my back and just not telling me things because it will upset me. My daughter was so worried about leaving me alone (she didn't want me to slip out and go to the pub), she arranged for a friend to come around and sit with me !

My mind is all over the place - I discovered today that I hadn't taken my blood pressure tablets for two days. I don't feel like I am doing well at anything at the moment - my work is suffering, I can't concentrate on the OU studying and I'm making mistakes everywhere. I am seriously considering giving up the governors role. That is also affecting my health now - however I feel I will be letting everyone down. I'm very half hearted doing the show at the moment too.

My husband and the manipulating ***** have succeeded in making me mentally unstable. I hope they can live with the consequences.

Dear God - thanks for nothing - if this is supposed to help make me a better person it sucks.
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