In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Wednesday, 9 March 2011

It's nearly 1am

And I am still not on my way to bed. I have just spent the last hour and a half talking to my daughter on the phone about her results for her dissertation and how to best analyse them.

Once again I am just existing getting from one day to the next - wandering my way through things totally disorganised. As I am usually an organised person I am finding this all very painful :-(

Late last night I sent a text to my husband asking if he wants to attend my daughters dissertation in July. He was over the moon to be asked.

I think I am starting to get cross about the situation I am in and the fact he has allowed the manipulating ***** to lead me to this. How could he let anyone do that to me ? He says he loves me and regrets what he has done. He still hasn't sussed out the overall impact this has had on the girls and me. I think I am currently a heart attack waiting to happen.

He texted me and said he would help me where he can - I told him that he had walked out of our lives so I won't be asking him to help. Not sure why ? I also seriously thought about blocking him on fb so he can't find out what I am saying. I don't want him to know what we are doing. Let him suffer - after all he is making the girls and me suffer.

I've had a few people from church call and leave messages on the phone. I don't want to call back as I know I can't go back and will likely blub on the phone.

I've started crying all over again today - in the car, when talking to people - and I feel such anger and hatred towards HER again - another big step backwards.
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