Relapse

I've not had a good day today ...... my husband responded to my text re a ticket to say he had bought tickets already - tickets.... he was bringing her. I couldn't do the show knowing that she is in the audience and that I may bump into her afterwards. So I am thinking of dropping out. I don't want to as even though my heart is not really in it, it is keeping me sane. He seems to think that I should have moved on - and in fact a friend who is also her friend has pretty much told me to 'move on'.

What is wrong with me - should I have 'moved on' by now ? They and others are assuming that because her husband starting dating new woman within a few weeks of them splitting up, I should too. I still love him and miss him but I don't like what he has done to me and how he is making me feel. They have stolen my life as  it was. She is even trying to get in with some of my friends but putting comments on their facebook statuses!!

I tried to get my wedding ring off today because I was so upset with him. But I seem to be very bloated at the moment and it won't come off - in fact I am a bit worried about this bloating and don't know if I should go to the doctors. I feel like I just want to curl up again and not see anyone anymore - and just wither away quietly. I've had loads of tears today and some cuddles from a couple of good friends who were there at the time and could tell I was tearful.

To top it all I discovered tonight that she has put a picture of her and my husband as her profile photo on facebook - how cruel is that ????????

Everyone tells me that it will get better and I'll be in a better place afterwards. But I think that I will never accept this, but eventually will learn to live with it. As my friend says - things will definitely never be the same again - whether it is better or not remains to be seen.

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