In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Monday, 14 February 2011

Valentines Day

I thought I would be quite upset today being Valentines day, however suprisingly I wasn't. Both my daughters bought me a card and one of them brough me some flowers. They were beautiful and very thoughtful :-) Rightly or wrongly I sent a card to my husband at her house - after all he is still my husband and my valentine.... I haven't heard anything and I don't expect to, especially as apparently she got upset last night when she saw him fb chatting with me. I hadn't planned to chat to him - he started the conversation off!

I have had another man contact me from Broxbourne on the forum. What do I do now ? I am not interested in another relationship - oh my word - maybe I need to delete myself from the forum if I can ..... I haven't got the time or energy to be dealing with this.

Today I felt a little freer than I have for a very long time. I think I may be starting to enjoy being able to do what I want when I want, but I still miss the love, hugs and companionship I had. Its still lonely at night time and first thing in the morning, especually not having someone to hug and kiss before leaving for work and when coming back. It is a very different lifestyle - I may start to enjoy it if I can fill in the missing bits :-)

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