Two days in one

I didn't get around to updating my blog yesterday as it was a manic day and evening. By the time I got home at around 1am fairly drunk, I just wanted to go to bed ! I had a great evening at the pub with loads of friends singing karaoke :-) One of the pub's regulars who I am told is an ex traveller, grabbed me for a dance. I am really becoming more like a single much younger person out and about. Whilst it is fun, I don't think I can keep this up as I am knackered. I'm not sleeping very well again and I'm waking up at odd hours even without the cat. But even so - I've always been so sensible - maybe it is time to do those things I didn't do in my younger days.

Today I went to Cambridge for my OU tutorial. On route I passed a lovely garden centre and fields that my husband had taken me to last summer to photograph poppies. I felt very sad when I passed them as it brought back memories of how nice he was to hunt out a good place for me to take the photos. He is a good and kind man and I do miss him loads. In fact the person who told him about these fields was one of the manipulating *****'s best friends. It occurred  to me that I did think it odd at the time how he had become such good friends with her. When he originally said he was going to stay with me, he saw this woman in Sainsbury's and she gave him a really nasty look and then blanked him. Afterwards when he changed his mind she was friends with him again. When asked why she behaved like that she said it was because she had had to sit with her friend whilst she poured her heart out and cried. So its OK for her to do that but she doesn't care a shit about the impact on me. She as a person is now very low on my list of nice people. How fickle !

My husband had his first shift at his new job and spent 8 hours on his feet. He found that very hard - so he is really suffering now for his new life.

Tonight I took part in a murder/mystery with the group we have done these with for a number of years now. It was odd not having my husband there. I missed him. At a party I was at  afterwards one of my young friends said some really lovely things to me - I was very touched and surprised.

I've said it before and I'll say it again - I am so appreciative of my lovely caring friends - thanks for being there for me. I fear that are some more ups and downs to go xx