In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Friday, 8 April 2011

God is having a laugh....

On this day of your life, Slava, we believe God wants you to know ... that you deserve happiness just because.
Message from God
There is nothing you need to do to deserve happiness. There are no 'minimal requirements' for you to fulfill before you can claim happiness. You deserve happiness simply by virtue of having been born. That's it. Nothing more is required. Be happy.


So God - why did you allow this to happen so I am unhappy ??

I've decided that I am so tired and I never can get a lie in that I will not go out to karaoke tonight so I can get to bed early and see if I can get some more sleep. The weather has been wonderful over the last few days and even though it does lift your spirits - mine still feel dampened. In fact everything does. I can't seem to get excited about anything and things that used to make me happy now just about get me through.

I was ahead with my OU stuff but I haven't been able to get my head around it recently - and haven't found any time - that I am now seriously close to being behind. I must spend some quality time on it tomorrow.....

So many friends have told me it takes years to get over this - can I cope being like this for years ? At the moment I feel like my body is just waiting to say 'ok enough already' and just give in on me.
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