In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Monday, 30 May 2011

A lie in at last !

Today was the first time in months that I managed to get a lie in. I woke up at around 9:30, fed the cats, made me some breakfast and then sat in bed to eat it whilst catching up on my OU reading till around 12. It felt so decadent but I really enjoyed it. Of course it would have been much nicer if there had been someone to bring me breakfast in bed ;-)

I sent an email to my vicar today to let him know I won't be back in the near term and to say my faith had gone. I don't know if I will ever get it back.

This evening I took both my daughters and their respective boyfriends out for a meal. To celebrate two birthdays and two completion of degrees (lets hope they both pass !). It was lovely being out with them all - but I did feel a bit lonely not having a partner too. Will I ever feel ok being a sole agent ? I do feel like I don't belong any more especially with my friends who have partners.

I've decided to start a list of all the things I want to do that I haven't yet done. Such as events, places to visit, holidays and other things. Then I'll have to plan working through the list. At least that will give me some things to look forward to :-)
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