Home Alone

Well - I'm completely on my own now for the next week. The saving grace is that I am at work during the day and on stage most of the evening. I wonder how I am going to feel walking into an empty house for a number of days, I don't have a good feeling about it already especially as tomorrow we have some organisational announcements at work. I may not be happy at the outcome of that :-( As it is I had the day planned off work to go and help get in at the theatre - now I have to spend three hours on the phone in the car in the afternoon.

This morning I thought I would put my ipod touch into shuffle to listen to whilst in the bath - why is it when you are on your own the majority of the songs end up being ones that 'hurt' ? All love songs or ones about needing someone such as 'bridge over troubled water'. I felt so sad by the time I got out of the bath.

I am very tired only having about four and half hours sleep the last two nights due to staying out with friends on Fri/Sat and then dropping my daughter, her boyfriend and his parents at the airport in the early hours of Sun morning. On Sat I didn't get in until about 4:30 am - I have never been out that late leaving as dawn was starting to come up. The sky was light and the birds had started singing - it was lovely - but I am now suffering :-(

My daughter at uni has one exam left to do and she is struggling with the revision so I have been trying to help her by discussing through the things she is learning - I hope it helps. She was sobbing again on Saturday (not good when you are tired yourself). But this evening she seems to have managed to complete one essay and now has three more to do. Its going to be difficult to help during the day or evening this week. So I guess it'll be late nights for me as she will probably want to talk when I get back from the theatre.

My husband came around to drop a card and some money for my other daughter to take on holiday as it is her 19th birthday while she is away. He asked about them and when I mentioned that the one at uni had completed three exams and only had one left he started to cry - he asked why I hadn't told him as he wanted to text her good luck. So once again I felt guilty because I hadn't thought to say anything. Is it my fault ? I didn't deliberately set out not to say anything - he knew she had gone back to do exams - I can't do anything right <sob>.  I'm not looking forward to Fathers day, as I don't think the girls will want to send him a card.

Before my daughter left she gave me a  Good Luck card for next week - so thoughtful :-)

So this is what I got on facebook today :

God wants you to know ... that your unspoken prayers will be answered.
	Yes, God knows you, God hears you, God loves you, God is there for you. You are blessed.

He has got to be joking !! He may know me but he is not hearing and has not answered any prayers - quite the opposite :-(