In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Tuesday, 5 July 2011

Six months Schizophrenia

I will never accept my husband leaving me but I will learn to manage it - eventually. At the moment I feel schizophrenic - being happy one day feeling like I can move on and then falling to pieces the next. I've been trying to work out what triggers the down days. Sometimes it is him coming around, sometimes it is a text, sometimes it is memories of our times together which could be linked to anything - people, things, sounds, dates etc.

I'm starting to get used to being on my own at home sometimes - but I do miss cuddles, kisses and someone to talk to about my day and to bounce thoughts off of. I can have a great conversation with one of my daughters but I don't want to burden her with some things.

Its been six months since he left now - have I moved on - a tiny bit, but I have a long way to go still.
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