Two deaths

This morning I found out that a friend has died - she was five years younger than me. She is the second parent of friends of my daughters to die in the last few days both. I think this has made me realise I have to try to live life to the full. I know I will still get emotional and cry at times ( like now as I am writing this). But I have to get on with life. I just need to work out how and whether I do it alone or with others. I'm off for a walk shortly with a friend to have a chat and think. Just taking the Christmas decorations down. Strangely usually each year when I do that it's ok but this year I feel so sad doing it. I wonder why ?