In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Sunday, 1 January 2012

Not a great start to 2012

I started the day off determined to be positive and happy. I enjoyed the new years concert from the Vienna orchestra which found me dancing around the room. Made me realise how much I miss my dancing.i thought I would cook something nice for the girls and me , but both of them went out so I was left on my own for a large part of the day. As I write my youngest daughter is still not back. It's not fun eating alone. So I spent the day not doing very much. I watched a DVD and tv which is so unlike me. I had thought of going for a walk just to get out of the house especially when I realised I hadn't been out since Wednesday. But I didn't as I felt like I couldn't be bothered about anything. I'm finding that I am getting very bitter. My daughter wished my husband a good evening last night when I was on my own all evening. That made me cross and bitter that he has done this to me and is seemingly happy and enjoying himself. I guess I can't expect him to be thinking about me - he has a new life and sod me. Oh why oh why can't I move on ? I'm not stupid but the heart hurts still and it is stopping me. Maybe I do need some counselling....
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