More worry

Its been another very up and down week. I'm so stressed at work, but I managed to speak to my new boss and explain that if I was going to lead the strategic programme he had to trust me and stop trying to control things. It seems he may have heard and accepted the message, so I am hopeful. Despite this I have too much to do. I have a hectic week ahead but plan to have Friday as holiday from work so I can chill and also get on with my revision.  I have just over two weeks left to revise and not a lot is going in as my head is so full of stuff.

We had our choir concert on Friday in which I sang a duet with the MD. I was sooo nervous but have had some really good feedback so happy and hope that will boost my confidence a bit more in my singing. I need to find another opportunity to sing solo or duet soon otherwise it will go again. I think after my exam I might start singing lessons to try and improve further. Sadly the choir looks like it will as a minimum have a break - but realistically I'm not sure it will continue.

My youngest daughter confided in me that she smoked. She says it is only the odd roll up when with others who smoke. I asked when she started and she said when her dad left. Another impact on the family that he and that manipulating ***** have had. Also she has a new bunch of friends one of whom works shifts so she has recently been going out in the early hours of the morning and not getting back till sometime between 4 and 6am. I am worried sick about her and what she may be getting up to. Last night she didn't come home at all - at the time of writing she is still not home. I eventually got a text after sending her two texts, leaving a phone message and asking her sister to see if she can speak to her. But I am very very concerned this is the start of something not good and that it will affect her work, prospects, sleep, eating etc.. Hopefully I will be wrong.

It is so hard trying to be positive and smiley at the moment. When people ask how I am I can't lie so I say - coping. But really - I'm not sure if I am coping very well, I'm still very tearful but don't want to bother folk as they must be getting fed up with me being like this. In my head I know what I need to do - in my heart I can't. What will help me to move on even in little steps ?