In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Wednesday, 19 October 2011

The exam is over

Today I had my OU exam and what a disaster ! I couldn't concentrate or remember anything even though I had  revised somewhat. You never can revise enough can you. I think I've probably scraped enough marks to get a resit but don't know if I will have enough to pass. Someone suggested that I put in a special circumstances form, but the problem is you need some hard evidence and I don't have any. The resukts don't come through until December, so I have a bit of a wait now.  It was interesting to note that my husband wished me good luck for the first night of the show tonight but didn't say anything about the exam.

The first night seemed to go OK. I have no idea how I came across on stage. I normally get nervous before a show but once again I am just going through the motions. Something I have realised is that I don't seem to feel anything - my emotions appear to be numbed :-(

The plan now is to read some of my novels and try and catch up on some things and start to clear out some of my rooms in the house. I'll sign up for the next OU course in December.

Oh well off to bed now as I have a full day of meetings tomorrow at work.
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