In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Saturday, 24 September 2011

No purpose

I really feel like I have no purpose in life any more - that along with no identity doesn't leave much. I don't really feel like I belong anymore. Even when at work or at my theatre group I kind of feel different and separate. Its odd as I didn't feel that before but I do now. I used to like to be different - but now it makes me feel like I shouldn't be there, so I tend to quietly slope off as soon as I can. When I keep myself busy I manage to keep myself together, so that's what I have done today. The highlight being cooking dinner together with my daughter. I'm now watching x-factor and my daughter is going out so I'll be on my own again as my other daughter is in Leeds this weekend. I have some plans to keep myself busy tomorrow - so we'll see. I still really miss the companionship of someone. Someone to talk to about how I feel and whom I can trust fully and to be able to go and do fun things with. Looks like I'll be doing it on my own now - not quite the same :-(
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