No Identity

I'm in a bit of a state I think. I'm overwhelmed at work and home. I can't concentrate or sleep properly I have not been feeling particularly well the last few weeks and can't pin point why. Its all bits and bobs - sort of a cold, sort of a stomach problem but no one thing that seems to have an end. I'm tired all the time and feel sick a lot. And I now can't be bothered with anything.

I am away on business again and really really didn't want to go. I have more work away trips in the next few weeks. I know I am miserable and being negative but don't care any more.

I'm in a coaching training masterclass and when I signed up I was looking forward to it. But now I am doing it I wish I wasn't. Everyone on the course seems so confident. I feel like a useless person and have no confidence. I looked around the room and thought how everyone has purpose in their life most of them with wedding rings on, so in relationships. We talked about identity today and then I relalised that is what I don't have any more. I then had to try hard to hold it together. I'm not sitting in a rubbish hotel room typing this whilst crying my eyes out. I have no identity - I am no one.

I hate what the manipulating ***** has done to me - she has won :-( Him and her are playing happy families and don't care a **** what they have done. I don't think I can cope any more.