Please can something good happen ?

It's been another stressful week at work, a lonely week at home and to top it all I got ill. On Thursday night I was really poorly with a temperature of over 100*C. The last time I can remember being that ill was when I was 18. I was on my own as both the girls had gone out. It is very scary being ill when you are on your own and no one to really care about hw you feel or to bring you a drink etc. I'm better now in that I haven't got a temperature but I'm still full of cold and don't have my voice as such. Today were the auditions for the local theatre groups show in May. I couldn't audition properly with my rubbish voice and not really feeling all that. I didn't get any of the parts I wanted and am totally gutted. Time to hang up my shoes I think. I'm struggling with all this rejection and no one to talk to about it. No one to cuddle and give me good advice etc. I'm trying to be cheery and positive but finding it hard, just feels like another kick in the teeth. To top it all I came home to a messy kitchen left by my daughter that I ad to clean up and she says to me - why are you looking so fed up - maybe you should give up the society if it keeps upsetting you. She's right to a point but it's the one thing I ave left hat hasn't really changed much. I'm going to have to have a serious think about it. I need some happy times ........