Moments

I've just got back from a business trip to the USA. Whilst it was very tiring and now I have jet lag to work through it also got me thinking a lot. I had quite a few moments during the week where I was able to think more clearly and actually felt like me as I was - energised and competent again. It felt good :-) We did an exercise where we had to draw our life plan, turn offs, turn ons and things we do to relax.  For my life plan I put me at a crossroads not knowing where I am going. One of the others made a statement that I have been musing over since. She said that we only have one life so she is determined that she was going to be happy. The manipulating ***** has taken that away from me - how dare she ! I've since been thinking about things I can do that will make me happy - but I keep stumbling as I would have to do most of them on my own and I'm wondering how much enjoyment I would get from that ?

At the moment I have no holiday plans - with work the way it is I'm not sure I'll be able to do much until September - and then I'll have around 30 days to use up by the end of the year...... October looks like it will be super busy with two business trips, a show, a week away with a friend and my exam. I'm not sure that they are all going to fit together - something will clash !

I've been looking at trips away to do photography in Ireland and fancy going to Sonisphere - but once again have no one to go with. I can't really go and stand at a concert for two- three days on my own - how sorry would that be. I wanted to go to the cinema to see 'Woman in Black' but when I said that to my daughter she said ' you can't go on your own!', so I haven't seen it :-(

My eldest daughter is off travelling for two months in under two weeks time - I will miss her and also worry that she is OK. My youngest is job hunting. She got through to the second interview but didn't get the first one she tried for. She has two interviews next week for two other jobs - fingers crossed.

On the theatre front I am busy with learning songs for an EXPO we are performing at at the end of March and due to start preparing for a one off performance of 'Titanic the musical' on the 100th anniversary of its sinking. I'll be re performing the part that I did when we did it before. With the other show that I was so upset about not getting a certain part(s), someone has dropped out and there is an opportunity to audition again. My cold which the cough is still with me was very bad during the auditions. I don't know why I didn't get a part and I'd like to re audition - but I'm scared to as I am afraid of how it may impact me again. Should I try or not ?

Finally in an attempt to get fitter and to kick start me I'm going to get a personal trainer to come around to the house weekly with a tailored programme. I don't know if it will work, but it is probably worth a try :-)