Missing my daughter already....

I hadn't realised how long it has been since the last post. I kept thinking I must post something but I have been so tired lately. I'm not usually tired and feel the need to go to bed early. That worries me - could I now have become diabetic ? My eldest daughter went off on her two months travel yesterday. I took her and her friend to the airport. I know she will have a great time and it's such an experience for her but I already miss her so much :-( My youngest daughter has got herself a job which she starts as soon as her apprenticeship finishes at the end of the month. It is one of the jobs she applied for but not quite in the area she wanted to work in. She will be doing care in the home for elderly folk. They have told her that they will probably train her in dementia care. This is a growing area so a good skill to have. The only concern I have is that it is a zero hours contract, so they don't guarantee work. It's with SAGA care so a reputable company. I did some of my thinking again (dangerous I know !) and came to the conclusion that I am getting to the stage of accepting my situation but still don't like it. I'm in a can't be bothered mood. I keep thinking of all these things I'll do but I can't be bothered to make the effort to do them. the other realisation I had was that the girls and I are three adults living separate lives but in the same house. I still wash and iron all their clothes though! But we rarely do anything together and I've given up trying to make meals for them as they are never around when I am cooking. My youngest daughter has gone vegan to try and loose weight and I've started comfort eating which is not good. I got my first assignment back for the ou module I am doing and got a reasonable mark, so that was good. Work is still madness, I'm looking forward to mid September when hopefully things will start to calm down a little. My husband rarely contacts me anymore and the tone of his texts have changed - much colder than they have been before. I suspect she is influencing him. That does scare me, I feel like i am on tender hooks all the time waiting for something not good. Anyhow I'm off to sleep now as I'm struggling to keep my eyes open :-(