In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Sunday, 4 December 2011

I am a failure

Well my boss told me on Friday that someone else is going to pick up one of the strategic programmes I am currently running. I have a sense of relief but also failure. I like a challenge and feel like I have been unsuccessful. Is that true or was I put into a difficult situation ? Whilst it was flattering to be the only one with two strategic programmes plus the Olympic work it was never realistic for anyone to manage all three. I wonder if my management will see that or just think I failed? So now what ? Well I still have the Olympic work and an interesting programme to run so hopefully that will mean I can go back to working more sensible hours after christmas. I will probably also go back to my old boss and team.

What a crap year this has been all around. I hope that I can move on in 2012 and start to enjoy my life again.

I went to the doctors and have a fasting blood test next week. I am also waiting for an appointment for a scan. I'm a bit scared in case they find something,,,,,

Only two weeks at work nd then a long needed break for two weeks. I can't wait !

I think I need to try and spend some time clearing some stuff out of the house.

My exam result is due in the next two weeks. I'm dreading that as I think I have failed and will have to resist next year. Will just be the final straw in one of the worst years of my life. I've not had anyone to discuss the work thing with. I miss that :-(
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