Ouch in more ways than one

Well so it goes on. Had a bit of a downer again today. Started off in good spirits but I seem to have done something to the back of my knee. It is so painful and I can't bend it. I took my car in for it's mot and service and the water pump bearings have gone so had to leave the car to have it fixed tomorrow. That'll be another £250 before Christmas :-( luckily they had a courtesy car for me to use which is actually a rather nice car - may consider changing my car to it in a year or two - more economical and nippy. Anyhow I decided to post the neighbours Xmas cards and one of the neighbours whom I haven't spoken to since it all happened came to the door and asked how I was doing. I just burst into tears. Why can't I move on ? My husband then dropped by to put up the external Xmas lights. He again mentioned that he had no money. I asked if she was working and surprise surprise she is not. He said that if she was earning then they have to have their benefits stopped and reassessed which would mean they would be weeks without money. What a stupid excuse ! She doesn't want to work..... I had to make a comment about the fact that she in particular was taking the **** . I am so not feeling Christmassy and fear I won't :-( I want to go to the midnight mass on Christmas eve but know I couldn't get through it without crying. At the moment I have no idea what I will be doing on Christmas eve when the girls go out nor on New years eve. Hopefully something will come up. Please please let 2012 be a better year......