In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Tuesday, 27 December 2011

Christmas musings

Its the day after Boxing day and I've managed to get through the last few days. But despite my wonderful family and friends making sure I'm OK, I've felt so lonely inside.I still feel empty and that there is something missing in my life.

Christmas Eve was spent with my girls and my eldest's boyfriend. We had a lovely meal together and opened some presents. They then went out for the evening and I went to my local pub where the karaoke was going on. A friend who has also split up with their partner this year came along and we chatted for the evening - it was nice to have someone to talk to.

Christmas Day my girls and I went to the in laws. My husband was there for some of the time but left before lunch was served. Everything was 'as normal' but it felt very odd having my husband and I giving separate presents to everyone. Being completely unattached - it hurt..... We stayed till early evening and then came home and played on the Wii whilst drinking Champagne. However neither of the girls or I drink much so we just had a glass each. We played Just Dance 2 and I discovered I had real problems breathing. I've got a cough and am wheezing when exerting myself  - again not good.... I'm so unfit.... something to do something about in 2012.

Boxing Day the girls and I had our own Christmas meal. I felt pretty rough - the bloating feeling again so had to just chill for a while before going out to spend the evening with some great friends. We chatted, played games and ate. It was lovely.

Today is a chill day - doing not very much. Not an easy thing for me to do. I stayed in bed watching a video till 2pm - found that quite hard !

Strangely enough the one thing I actually did enjoy doing was feeding a friends cats on Christmas Day and Boxing Day morning. I guess it made me feel wanted......something I don't feel most of the time.

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  1. Me Discovering Me29 December 2011 at 08:02

    Just been catching up on your posts. Hoping 2012 is a much better year and some luck starts going your way. It just seems one thing after another. Just keep holding on. Need to break the cycle of bad luck. Try and do little things that you enjoy to distract your mind for a bit. Take care x

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