I forgot to mention when I posted the other day that the Doctor said to me that sometimes being reasonable is not the best thing to do. She thinks I am too reasonable - am I ?
Its only just over a week until it will be a year since he told me he was leaving me.
My daughters have both been to lunch with him recently and he asked for more ideas for xmas presents for them as he said he wanted to show he still cares about them. Whilst he is their dad and I am glad that they are talking to him now I kind of feel betrayed. I find it really hard when folk are friendly and chatty with him. I know I said I wanted that - but it hurts so much. Makes me feel so much more lonely. I almost feel betrayed. I don't want folk to fall out with him - but it feels like he has it all again and I am still sad and suffering. I know it is unreasonable and I shouldn't think like that. I think I shall eventually become a recluse as it will be less painful.
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