Work, friends and sad times

So what kind of a week have I had so far ? Most of it has been work with me working late most days. I had a lovely evening at some friends on Monday. I really did have a fab evening. I must work out how to do that more often. Sadly work and life gets in the way. Thursday was spent on the bar at the theatre group with another good friend. I have some wonderful friends - I feel so privileged to have such kind friends. And boy do I need them ! My husband came to see the show when I was on the bar. I still find it hard when I see him, especially down at the theatre group as that was such a big part of our joint lives. I don't know how to talk to him when there. I guess I'm scared that if we are too friendly people will think I have got over him and moved on which would be so far away from the truth. At the end of the evening he came to talk to me about Xmas presents for the girls and we had a long look into each others eyes. He then sat down on his own to drink his drink and looked so lonely. I felt sorry for him - it hurt so much :-( A friend said to me that it is said that it takes half the time you were in a relationship with someone to really get over them. That'll be 15 years for me then..... I finally went to the doctors today about the bloating I have been having. As I was talking to her I burst into tears. She told me that it is not surprising that I am down. It was not depression but something to be expected in the circumstances. I now have a blood test booked and an appointment for a scan to come. If it can just put my mind at rest that would be good. Oh well let's see what the weekend brings. I have my street tap class to look forward to on Sunday but otherwise just catching up. I'm finding I need the downtime more and more now - must be getting old :-(