I'm feeling really low today :-( My ex husband married the manipulating *****yesterday and whilst I'm not Facebook friends with him anymore, friends who have been to the wedding are posting photos which I am seeing. I feel sick in my heart and stomach.
A couple of my lovely friends did check on me on Saturday to see I was ok and I did go out for a nice spa day with my beautiful daughters. I was fortunate however to meet up with my ex's aunt and uncle who left the wedding to see me (how kind is that!). It was great to see them again after a number of months and have a chat about all kinds of things.
So yesterday I managed to avoid thinking about it however it really hit me today and I've been alone for quite a bit of the day. I also didn't sleep well last night I think because of the car and the wedding. I also feel a little betrayed by a friend who said she wasn't going and then seemingly did by the photos......
With lots of changes in my and friends circumstances I'm finding that I often feel lonely again. I'm also starting to not want to do anything apart from sit at home.
On top of all that someone hit my car on Friday night. That is the fourth time my car has been hit by someone since I got it in November. At least this chap opened up to it as the others didn't. I now have three parts of my car damaged ( I had the broken mirror fixed) two of which I'm going to have to pay to have repaired. I hate having to do these things alone ;-(
My daughter keeps pointing out to me all the great things I have done since he left and she is right, but I still hurt inside and this just covers it all up. I know I have to move on but it's so difficult :-(
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