Believe it or not it is almost two years since my husband left me for the manipulating ***** - doesn't time fly ! Do I still love him ?.................yes ............... I've tried time and again to feel hate but I can't. I'm learning to accept the situation and be on my own. However I am finding that I have to force myself to do things and go out otherwise I would just stay in all the time. I want to do so much but it is so much effort doing it alone :-( I do think that I am quite a social person and do enjoy others company.
BUT I am determined to have a great 2013. I've lost three stone in weight so far and am aiming to lose another three by the summer. I want to get fitter by doing another dance class. Other things for 2013 - finish my degree, spend more time travelling and taking photos. I'd also like to get back into my craft making and get some singing lessons to learn how to control my voice better.
I need to work out what I'm going to do for holiday this year - I'll definitely visit my friends in Spain again and hope to visit my cousins in Germany. I have a photography weekend booked in March and am looking forward to that. I also want to try and visit the theatre once a month.
The one thing I am not looking forward to is going through the divorce. I know it is the right thing to do but I feel though I have been forced into it - maybe it will give me some closure ?
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