Post show blues

I've just come to the end of the week of the last show I was in - The Pirates of Penzance. It has been a wonderful week. I enjoyed every minute of doing the show and the part of Sam. Today I have the post show blues. I've not had that for years ! I'm trying to figure out why I have enjoyed this show so much. We had a lovely atmosphere throughout the show with everyone caring for each other. And possibly because I had a bit more of a featured part. I'm so trying to improve my singing and whilst I know I still have a long way to go a couple of folk have reminded me of how far I have come with my singing. I actually do feel more confident standing up and singing in front of others now - but I'd like to improve further.

I'm still waiting on the mortgage company to confirm that they will allow the mortgage to be in my name alone. And my husband is desperate for money to the extent he was hassling me this morning to give him some so he could get petrol and food. I was planning to have a chilled morning and felt quite stressed and upset.

I'm having a break from the next show (music hall) so I can work on completing my OU degree and to be able to just do things when I want. Part of me wants to do lots of things and I start planning them and then I can't be bothered. A friend of mine said I would become selfish with my time - he was right.......