it happened today.... My ex and the manipulating b**** got engaged on his birthday. This is what she has wanted from day one. The manipulation continues she had blocked both my daughters from facebook and suddenly she has unblocked them. Next step will be to try and befriend them, because they are nearly 'family'.
I'm so upset ......he has told me to move on with my life, but I've just realised that I was holding out hope he may leave her and come back. That is so much harder to do once they commit to each other. Another knock back. Who would want someone of my age ? I've only ever had one person all my life - I don't know how to do this. How do I move on? Sadly I've had some very negative thoughts again tonight - this has set me back loads again. I'm lying here in bed alone crying my eyes out.
My daughters both said they would stay with me, but I don't want them to see me upset. I feel I have to be strong for them, but inside I'm a mess. I don't think anyone really knows how I feel and how much I am hurting inside still after nearly four years.
Life goes on, you plod through it, act happy but really I don't feel much happiness anymore, not for me anyhow.
To top it all my oldest daughters boyfriend broke up with her a couple of weeks ago after three years together. I want to help her but she doesn't want to talk about it so I feel helpless.
I'm so stuck :-(
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