Decree Nici ?

I received a call from my husband telling me he had received a letter from the court saying that the hearing for the divorce will be on 14th Feb ....... I need to contact my solicitor as I haven't heard anything yet ! Im assuming this is for the decree nici. What a day for that to be on ! Valentines day will mean something different to me in the future. I'm still concerned about how this is going to end up , even though my husband is being very reasonable about what he says he wants my solicitor says the court could order something else if they consider it unfair. I'm very nervous and won't be able to relax until the decree absolute comes through. I have a feeling that my husband will get re married to the manipulating ***** probably because she wants it. She's not stupid as she knows it will give her protection.

On the positive side I have now lost nearly 3.5 stone in weight and am loving the nice comments I am getting from people and the fact I can now wear smaller clothes. I'm going to try and lose another 2.5 to 3 stone.

Also just passed another OU module so now on the home run for completing my degree. Two assignments and an end of course assessment to go - no exam thankfully :-)

I'm currently enjoying the theatre group as the individuals that realty make it not very nice are not doing the two shows I am in. I'm with some lovely folk :-)

Work is very busy but I seem to be being appreciated and enjoying the programmes I am leading. I feel more engaged again and have more of the old me back.

I also decided I wanted to do something of value that I can use my Psychology knowledge and give me an opportunity to meet new people. I've applied for a lay advisor role (voluntary) on a strategy board and have an interview next week. So we'll see....

I'm looking forward to my photography weekend in March. A bit worried that the jet lag I will have from being in the US on business the week leading up to it will be a problem especially as I will be having to get up at around 5:30 in the mornings !

No idea what I will do for holiday this year. I belong to Groupon and wowcher and all these great holiday baks are coming up but they are always for two people. Everything is aimed at couples - singles always lose out and that sucks.

Petition for Divorce issued

I've just received an email from the solicitor telling me that the Petition for Divorce was issued by the court on 27th December 2012 and what the next steps areI know I need to move on but after nearly two years I still don't want this. I fear every letter and email I receive from the Solicitor and this one made me shake and cry, I'm terrified of the whole process and know it is going to be very painful :-(

A new year with a positive mind

Believe it or not it is almost two years since my husband left me for the manipulating ***** - doesn't time fly ! Do I still love him ?.................yes ............... I've tried time and again to feel hate but I can't. I'm learning to accept the situation and be on my own. However I am finding that I have to force myself to do things and go out otherwise I would just stay in all the time. I want to do so much but it is so much effort doing it alone :-( I do think that I am quite a social person and do enjoy others company.

BUT I am determined to have a great 2013. I've lost three stone in weight so far and am aiming to lose another three by the summer.  I want to get fitter by doing another dance class. Other things for 2013 - finish my degree, spend more time travelling and taking photos. I'd also like to get back into my craft making and get some singing lessons to learn how to control my voice better.

I need to work out what I'm going to do for holiday this year - I'll definitely visit my friends in Spain again and hope to visit my cousins in Germany. I have a photography weekend booked in March and am looking forward to that. I also want to try and visit the theatre once a month.

The one thing I am not looking forward to is going through the divorce. I know it is the right thing to do but I feel though I have been forced into it - maybe it will give me some closure ?