Time is a funny thing isn't it? I forgot how long it was since my ex husband split up from me. I was thinking four years so had to check on this blog to see and was shocked to discover it will be five years in about a months time since he declared he was leaving for her. Five years and I still hurt - omg how long will this go on for ? I feel I have moved on in many things but still find it painful and tearful everytime I think about him and how I miss him and what a manipulating ***** she is. I have no idea how I get over this - maybe it is just time ? Many friends have sad it took them seven years....
I'm not sleeping well at the moment - I'm dreaming about what a big mistake it is leaving my job and not having a full time job to go into. I know in my heart I want to just spend the first few months doing what I want and being a free agent but I think it's the money side that is concerning me. It's been expensive just recently with me having to spend a lot of money on my daughters car to get it through its MOT. It was just unfortunate that a whole load of key things needed doing in one go. And of course Christmas and my holiday are coming up. I've been trying to cut back on a number of things and have bought a new smaller more economical car as one of those - a trade for my birthday which is next week.
I'm looking forward to seeing how the 'new era' goes for me but of course it is such a big change I don't know how it's going to pan out.
It's just under three weeks to my holiday in Myanmar. I'm both excited and apprehensive. I'll be sharing a room with someone, I hope they are nice and fun :-)
I've been reading an excellent book called 'The invisible woman'. A sort of autobiography of Helen Walmsley-Johnson about her time in her 50+ years. I can relate to so much of it.
I'm still not back on the radio as the studio s not ready. We have been told that to start we will have to record the show as he can't afford the live stream at the moment. The station needs to bring in some money first. I think I'll be moving away from a 70s only show to a more mixed format. But with my holiday coming along it may not start now till next year :-( I'm missing it !
I'm still chatting to my 'pen/phone' friend. It's nice to have someone who is not so close to your own situation to chat to. And other friends......well I think it's time to build a new network of friends. It's not that they are not friends anymore, but our paths (theirs in particular) seem to be going elsewhere and I'm not on that path. Sad really.
I'm kind of frustrated now as I feel like I'm in a bit of a suspension waiting for one era to close and the new to start. Hey ho.....
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