Four years

Well it's been over four years now since he left. Before Christmas I was feeling so positive and suddenly I have become hyper sensitive again. I don't know why :-( I feel like I am drifting away from some of my good friends and that worries me as I don't know if it's me or them.....it could be that I started a cold on Christmas Eve and am still suffering form it so it has made me feel down.

I'm loving presenting the radio programme but it now clashes with the walking group so I'm not getting out much. I managed three walks over the Christmas period and I'm still walking around the site at work during lunchtimes, but I need more. I have to sort out how I can fit some walks in.

The radio presenting is a lot of planning and prep before the day, but I am enjoying it and learning lots.

In a mad moment over the break I joined an online dating group and have been chatting to a guy whom I have met with now. He seems very nice and brought flowers for me. Chatting to him is nice as its someone different to chat to.

Work is still troubling me - I really need a change. I think I've come to a point in my life now where it is going to go in a new direction. In some ways it's exciting but also scary.  I loved having two weeks break over Christmas.

My daughter gave us a lovely surprise by turning up unexpectedly on Friday. Lovely to have her around and my other daughter asked if I facied going away for a few days with her. I was so happy for her to ask that :-)

The ex brother in law and his wife sent invites to both my daughters to a party. Whilst I understand why they didn't invite me - it really hurts as they have not spoken to me since he left. I think they now  don't consider me part of the family which is sad having known them for so long.

Sigh .....