It has been most interesting to see who has commented or asked me how I am since the news of his engagement. It's two weeks now and in that time I had two immediate messages from friends ( not close ones), one saying very nice things about me and the other saying they know what I am like and to keep my chin up. Then over the week various other friends close and not so close asked me how I was. Some of my 'friends' whim I have known for a long time have said nothing.....
What has really hurt is the fact that friends have happily congratulating him forgetting that I am still hurting.
I also discovered my brother in law ( is that what I still call him?) had come down from where he lives to go to the manipulating ******* 50th birthday party and hadn't told me he was around. I also discovered my other sister in law has unfriended me from fb. I now know that they have discarded me from the family....I only have my girls now and my youngest sister in law who is also my god daughter is the only one still in touch ( oh and his aunt). This makes me feel more and more alone :-(
Thursday, 23 October 2014
Friday, 10 October 2014
She continues to manipulate
it happened today.... My ex and the manipulating b**** got engaged on his birthday. This is what she has wanted from day one. The manipulation continues she had blocked both my daughters from facebook and suddenly she has unblocked them. Next step will be to try and befriend them, because they are nearly 'family'.
I'm so upset ......he has told me to move on with my life, but I've just realised that I was holding out hope he may leave her and come back. That is so much harder to do once they commit to each other. Another knock back. Who would want someone of my age ? I've only ever had one person all my life - I don't know how to do this. How do I move on? Sadly I've had some very negative thoughts again tonight - this has set me back loads again. I'm lying here in bed alone crying my eyes out.
My daughters both said they would stay with me, but I don't want them to see me upset. I feel I have to be strong for them, but inside I'm a mess. I don't think anyone really knows how I feel and how much I am hurting inside still after nearly four years.
Life goes on, you plod through it, act happy but really I don't feel much happiness anymore, not for me anyhow.
To top it all my oldest daughters boyfriend broke up with her a couple of weeks ago after three years together. I want to help her but she doesn't want to talk about it so I feel helpless.
I'm so stuck :-(
I'm so upset ......he has told me to move on with my life, but I've just realised that I was holding out hope he may leave her and come back. That is so much harder to do once they commit to each other. Another knock back. Who would want someone of my age ? I've only ever had one person all my life - I don't know how to do this. How do I move on? Sadly I've had some very negative thoughts again tonight - this has set me back loads again. I'm lying here in bed alone crying my eyes out.
My daughters both said they would stay with me, but I don't want them to see me upset. I feel I have to be strong for them, but inside I'm a mess. I don't think anyone really knows how I feel and how much I am hurting inside still after nearly four years.
Life goes on, you plod through it, act happy but really I don't feel much happiness anymore, not for me anyhow.
To top it all my oldest daughters boyfriend broke up with her a couple of weeks ago after three years together. I want to help her but she doesn't want to talk about it so I feel helpless.
I'm so stuck :-(
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