Its been a month.....

Gosh - its been a whole month since I last made an entry to my blog - so lets see what has happened this month....

We have been told my mother in law is terminally ill with a max of three months. I thought we should take her out to places she would like to go to and suggested the beach. So we took her to Southend. My youngest daughter and her boyfriend, brother in law, husband and youngest sister in law also came - so it felt a little odd.  I hope my mother in law enjoyed herself. She has become very quiet and apparently is now starting to become forgetful and doing odd things. Its been around a month since the diagnosis so we are just waiting for the inevitable :-(

I had two interviews for that job in West London and am now waiting to find out whether I or the other candidate were successful. I ended up having an interview with the CIO which was interesting - I don't think I will get it which is OK as I didn't enjoy the travelling - almost two hours door to door and over £30 each day !

I know this is really bad but I saw a photo of the manipulating ***** for the first time for ages with my husband at a friends wedding (more his friend than mine) and she has put on loads of weight and has gone blond. I actually smiled and felt really good - how bad is that !!!

I still continue to lose my weight and have just under a stone to go to target - I've nearly lost five stone now. I went to my daughters boyfriends mums 50th birthday party and some photos were taken. When looking at them on facebook I skipped some and then went back as I thought I know that person and then realised it was me ! I almost didn't recognise myself :-)

This weekend just gone was my daughters 21st birthday and she had a lovely party in our garden - I love my garden now :-D Here's hoping we will have some nice weather so I can enjoy it more.

I'll be on stage again next week in our next musical show and then again for the local festival twice in a couple of weeks time. So the next three weeks are going to be manic. I am then going to have a bit of a rest - not sure yet if I will audition for the autumn musical show. Part of me says I need a break and part of me says I need to be doing something to stop me becoming a recluse.

I have less and less feelings now for my husband though when on the phone to him the other day a 'I love you' slipped out ........ I'm not sure if he heard. The divorce is still not complete and just seems to cost more and more money even though so far there hasn't been anything complicated. I just want it over now so I can move on with my life.