So here I am on Christmas morning sitting alone in the house. My girls are meeting with their father this morning. It feels very weird and I'm feeling sad. I need to pull myself together before they come back.
My youngest daughter says I am always so negative and a few days ago she told ne to forget the manipulating ***** and that she shouldn't figure in my head as she is nothing to me. Easier said than done. Whilst I have moved on quite a lot and my lovely friends keep telling me I'm an inspiration and have done so well and so much it still hurts inside. I had a lovely day at the Thursford Christmas Spectacular on Thursday with two great friends. The show was magnificent but I did shed a tear when they sang Christmas Carols as it brought back so much of this time six years ago.I fear that Christmas will always be a little sad for me as it was over December that my ex husband moved out.
Anyhow I've had a fab couple of months - the show I was in was good fun and a great challenge for me with the singing, shame it was not well attended. I was a little hurt that neither of my girls came to see it ;-(
My eldest daughter completed on her flat and slowly moved things in, buying furniture etc. She moved in officially in the middle of November. I think she has found it quite tough and lonely at times. But I am so proud of her she has managed to get on the housing ladder. Her flat is so nice and she has made it very homely :-)
My birthday this year was a bit of a washout. I was alone most of the day and had to travel to the airport in the evening so didn't have long with the girls.
My trip to the Galapagos was amazing - they say whilst you may leave the Galapagos your heart will always be there - how true that is. I did have a challenge at the start of the holiday as my luggage didn't turn up. Thankfully I got it the next day.
The run up to Christmas was great and I had more Christmas meals, coffees and outings than ever before. Lots with the gym girls whom I feel very fortunate to be a part of. So much thanks goes to a friend who introduced me to them and persisted to get me in the crowd. She is going through a difficult time at the moment and I often think of her - my heart goes out to her as I know what it is like especially during the festive period.
I have some lovely lovely friends quite a few who are new this year. But also a couple I have known for a while.
I was so happy yesterday as one of my cousins called me from Germany for a chat. Whilst neither of us speak fluently in each others language we managed a chat and I really think I need to go over to Germany again next year.
We had a nice meal and time together (the girls and the one boyfriend) last night and I was spoilt with lovely presents from them.
On the relationship front - no movement through there are a couple of nice male friends I have. One whom I sing with and the other who I go to the Cinema with. But that is as far as it will go with both of them - friends.....
Well - time to put the Turkey in ready for when the girls get back here. Here's hoping teh rest of the year goes well and that 2017 is even more amazing :-)
xx
