Well I heard last week that I will be being made redundant from work on 2nd Jan 2016. Because of my age and as I'm on a final salary pension I will have to take my pension. It seems nuts that I will officially be taking my company pension in Januray next year ! I'm going to have to do a lot of thinking to decide what next..... At work I'm still not fully busy and have no idea what I am going to be asked to do. The new organisation is in place from 1st June - I already feel like I have been forgotten.
On the theatre side I've got a part in the next play which I am delighted about and found out today I also have a part in the next musical. Doing both for a few weeks will be change but keep me busy.
Sadly my holiday was cancelled so I'm trying to find an alternative which is proving tricky!
Socially I seem to be an outcast and forgotten now as all my friends do things in couples. Sometimes I am an after thought but not invited first hand to many things, so many of my weekends are quite lonely :-( because of this I'm finding myself becoming quite reclusive and not going out at all unless it is rehearsals or radio show. It's sad that to start people are helpful and ask you out etc. but as time goes on it is assumed you are ok and just get left. I'm still the same person on my own finding it hard to be alone. I'm getting better being with my own company but still need to be wanted and loved. I know my girls love me but I don't really feel wanted any more. I'm not sure how I will feel when I finally leave work as I will have even less purpose in life.
I think I need to find some new friends, but that is easier said than done :-(
