Its been a while since I blogged mainly because I have been so busy at work, working long hours and getting very stressed. I was close to resigning as I feel I have been bullied by one individual since the summer and just can't stand it anymore. I have worked for the same company for 35 years and enjoy my job, appreciate my manager, like the company and its ethics but at the moment the behaviour of certain individuals is making me hate going to work. I'm shedding tears now just writing this and I've been off work for two weeks.... I am dreading going back. Sadly this person has influence over my future so I don't feel while I am in my current position I can succeed anymore.
I think it is time for a change for me - I either need to find a role in another department which is not easy or if I had an opportunity to take redundancy I probably would.
Christmas this year has been different. With my mother-in-law no longer around to hold it together everyone decided to do their own thing. However I had a lovely time with my daughters and their boyfriends on Christmas Eve followed by going to a pub with a friend whose partner was playing in his band. That was fab and a lovely start to Christmas. Christmas day I invited my younger sister-in-law and my two youngest nephews to join my daughters and me for lunch. They were all at a loose end too. We had a fun time. Boxing day some lovely friends had me around in the evening for food and games. So all in all its been a lovely Christmas. My youngest daughter asked me if I had a problem with Christmas seeing as that is when my husband decided to leave and we had that hanging over us over the whole period - but I don't.
Match.com has not really turned out well. This is due to run out mid Jan and I won't be renewing. Initially I exchanged a few emails with some guys who once I responded they didn't write back - I obviously said something wrong :-( Then it went all quiet until Christmas Eve when I got three chaps contact me. I've been talking to one of them on the phone and he seems quite nice. But tonight I've got an email from him saying that if I am chatting to others maybe we should not. I give up !!!! I have only exchanged emails with the others......
In a few days it will be three years since my husband left - I'm still trying to rebuild my life and move on ....
