In the beginning

On Monday 6th December my husband of over 28 years declared that he is leaving me for another woman. Apparently I have done nothing wrong and he still loves me but is not 'in love' with me.

His affair started around 18 months ago by 'the other woman' contacting and propositioning him on facebook. Now he is no angel as he should have said no - but why would a woman deliberately set out to break up a marriage that was not in trouble just because hers was on the rocks ? To be fair to my husband he told me after I noted that he seemed to be distant - at least I didn't find out via some other route !

We tried twice to make a go of it but both times she managed to come back into his life again opening up wounds and making him think again of her never really giving us a chance. She claims she is 'thick' but I think she targeted him as she could see what a wonderful man is he and wanted him to replace her broken marriage (by her I hasten to add). I also think she is a manipulating *****.

I still love my husband as he is my soulmate and always has been and also was my best friend. So not only has she stolen my husband, she has stolen my soulmate and my best friend.

This blog will hopefully be therapeutic for me and maybe help others who find themselves in a similar situation xx





Wednesday, 14 August 2013

Sad endings but social doings

So its a whole month on from the last post.

Sadly my Mother-in-law died at the end of July - she will be missed. She didn't approve of what my husband has done and said she considered me family. I offered to have the wake at my house as I wanted to do my bit and contribute. I enjoyed doing it, think it went well and it was fab to have all the family together. Unfortunately I don't think that will happen again until the next wedding, christening or death :-(  We did get some lovely photos of all the cousins, siblings, me and my daughters etc. together.

Since I started going out with my husband (in 1979) I have enjoyed my Christmas day with the family but my Mother-in-law was the lynch pin so that will all change this year. I've already been told that my Sister-in law and my husband want to do their own thing. I've told the girls we now have to create a new Christmas tradition for us and my other Sister-in-law can join us if she has nothing else to do.

I'm still waiting for the divorce to come through. It is ridiculous how long it is taking and my husband keeps coming to me asking for more money.... I don't have it now especially as my daughter has decided to go back to study and I have a large sum to pay for her course next year along with buying things she needs for college.

No news about that job at work - but I'm actually sort of enjoying what I am doing at the moment. Having said that I don't like going into the office after a few days or weekend off.

August is proving to be a social month with quite a few meetings with friends, parties and visits to the theatre. Just last week between Thursday and Sunday I went out to various things with various friends each day - theatre on Thursday to see Ruthie Henshall and actually got to meet her and Kerry Ellis afterwards - lunch with a friend I hadn't seen since earlier in the year and then the theatre again in the evening to see A Chorus Line with another friend and karaoke after with some other friends - lunch with friends on Sunday one of whom I haven't seen for about 30 years and then a quiz in the evening in which we came last out of three teams !! I have three more theatre trips planned in August, two birthday evenings and one patio warming party ;-)

I finally booked myself a holiday and am now quite excited about it. I'm off on a singles holiday for a week to Kenya - three days on Safari and four days by the beach. Its the perfect holiday for me as I get to go on Safari which I have wanted to do for years, do some photography, see some of the country and have a chance to chill too. I can't wait !! I've had to have some additional jabs for protection but I've also got some very helpful hints and tips from a friend who comes from Kenya :-D And being a singles holiday it is geared up so you don't have to be on your own if you don't want to be.

I'm feeling a new confidence starting to build and I think a lot of that is due to the lovely comments I keep getting - almost daily - about my weight loss. I even had the comment 'there is no reason why another man wouldn't fancy you now.... well they would have before too!' but as I said - I'm not looking.

I am beginning to wonder if I have started to get menopausal symptoms. I've had these episodes of feeling very warm though I am not going red apparently and this week I feel very bloated and not quite right. My sleeping has been rubbish for a while and I'm not getting enough of it either.

I also found out that I have been nominated as a candidate for Woman of the Year at Slimming World. The voting is next week. I am quite chuffed that I have been put forward :-) As of last week I was 2lb away from target and my Wii tells me my BMI is healthy - so all being well I'll be on maintenance rather than weight losing very soon. I have already lost over 5.5 stones !

So things are up and down but my mood is definitely more on the up now which has to be a good thing.....